Dear Friends,

Those who I still keep in somewhat frequent contact with; I'm sorry I don't do so more. You know I love each one of you. You have all impacted me, and have been there for me in many ways. Sometimes I don't feel I've done the same for you, you have no idea how I want that to change. In high school I missed too many chances to have the real friendship and do things friends should do together. I don't want the days to come, and I feel them too near, that I think its too late to do any of that. I don't want to ever lose contact with any of you but I feel like I've done it to our friendship. Because I will be absent for a month this summer, I'm making myself make a promise. I will be making more efforts to see each one of you, and talk on more of a daily basis. With a niece on the way; Gilbie I really feel I'm not there for you, and with Howlett there for you, I know you are in safe hands and you will be OK. Though I can't help feel I should be there more too. Every time I see anything baby related, I think of you and the little one :) It also makes me think of Howlett, simply because you have been there for the both of us and we are both EXTREMELY excited for this little girl to enter the world, and have us to take care of her, guide her, and love her just as much as her amazing momma.

Howlett; I haven't spoken to you in what seems like ages, or we oddly do on Facebook but come May I know we will surely be closer. We have a niece to look out for now, and you and I both know her momma is more than ready and knowledgeable about everything for her, but she will have the best two aunts in the world. I thank you for being there when I can't be for Gilbie and for still being a friend to me even when we go for ages without talking. 

Sammi; I know there are many things hard for you too. Being alone most of every week, day in and out, and going through the motions of school, trying to find a job, paying for things.  Our girly time is very few and far between and I do miss living with you, I know you feel that maybe you can't do things sometimes but you really can do anything. Look at where you are, you left Orangeville which had nothing, you have been on your own for 2 years now, you have been able to make your own decisions in many things especially financially, and keep yourself afloat. I know you've had troubles with Lance, and I'm glad that I can try to help you and we can talk about everything from that to our family, to everyday life, to the future, and all as if I never left Barrie. 

Cassie; You have no clue on how much I loved seeing you at Sammi's the last time, and talking to you all night and day nearly. I truly miss our high school days of seeing you, and even if you weren't there during your 'experimental phase' (ha ha.), nearly everyday. Our countless days of slacking off in art class and simply getting away with every bit of it. I'm looking forward to seeing you in May, and am thrilled to take you around the city for adventures. 

Sarah; You are crazy busy with school all the time, and even though I won't be going to Sheridan with you it is for sure just more reason for me to visit you. You've made such efforts to come to my house and see me, and you are amazing for that. It was so random how we met and I know we had our struggles, and in a way especially because you were the last to become part of our group of friends. 

Renee; I haven't spoken to you in months, literally. Since at least December and it hurts that neither of us really try to talk to each other. I miss the few city adventures we had together and we need to have more, I know someday we will see each other soon and hang out again. Again, no matter how long we go without talking I know we are still friends.

In the end I know you girls are my best of friends. We don't see one another nearly as much as we should but I know we are always just a text, call, or message away. I will always be there when any one of you needs me, and I honestly hope you know that, we may not speak everyday but I would be there in a heartbeat if anyone needed me to be. I know on my part I have to make more of an effort to talk to all, and at this moment in time its just been extremely difficult for me personally to do so. But girls, I miss you all and I know that we have all gone our separate ways, and started our own lives and I'm proud of each one of us and in the end, we will always be us.....always friends.

♥